During the work out: How do you feel?
When Insanity Max30 started and Shaun T’s voice started talking, I…was…pumped! I was thinking like “yup, here we go..the first day to a new me…the first day to feeling better about myself."
Then reality hit. After the first 3 mins I was think like damn I want to quit. But I couldn't quit because my husband was right there watching me and I knew if i quit he would be the first person to call me out on it. So I continued. Lets just say, this was the hardest work out I have done in awhile endurance wise. I was completely panting like a dog and I wasn't even 10 minutes in.
The only way I was able to get through it was telling myself that I couldn’t quit. I was really out to prove to my husband that I was going to finish, even if I was an uncoordinated, floppy, sweaty, cant keep up mess. The whole time I was working out I was telling myself to just finish.
I finished. End of story.
After the work out: How do you feel?
I have so many mixed emotions. I feel sad, defeated, angry and embarrassed. But at the same time there is an underlying sense of accomplishment and a tiny bit excited. Getting through this workout was so hard. Maybe I should have picked an easier work out, but with a 3 month old who is now deciding to only take cat naps, I needed something that doesn't take a lot of my (or her) time. So Insanity Max30 will have to be the one for me since its only 30 mins. Plus, I know it’s very intense and I really want to attempt to push myself.
So yea, all the negative emotions were because I started thinking like, dang I have no strength and no endurance. There was a point where I was really working out and I was getting so strong and could actually do a push up! Ya, that’s right…a push up! That was huge for me. So doing this workout and and having to stop literally every 3 mins cut my core deep. I am only 32 years old and totally let myself go. I mean, okay….I’ll give myself a bit a credit since I did just have a baby a few months ago HOWEVER I have never been the person who was toned and in shape. I always struggled with weight or more importantly just being healthy.
In the end, after the 30 minutes were gone and after I went through all these negative emotions that were beating me up, I slight sense of relief and accomplishment grazed over me. I started to think that this was only day one and even though I stopped so much and barely got through the workout, I did it. At least day 1 is done and I got through it and I am alive.
So I guess I can pat myself on the back. Good for me. :)
Post Workout Meal:
-Egg white omelet. Well 2 egg whites and 1 full egg with the yoke.
-Inside the I put a slice of cheese and some shredded cheese.
-Outside I put a slice of cheese and salsa.
*I am not following their nutrition guide because I literally eat like a 2 yr old. So lets see what kind of results I will get.
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