During the work out: How do you feel?
Today was a tough day and I was borderline thinking I wasn't even going to do Day 2. I was about to just start it up again “tomorrow.” But I know for me “tomorrow” never really comes. LOL.
I woke up feeling extremely emotional. I think my hormones had a big part to play in my emotional state, probably from having my baby a few months ago, but also I think it was partly because of the regular stressors of life and the dreading of the workout, knowing it was going to be tough and I am not a fan of working out or feeling tiered. Oh, and did I mention that my almost 3 month old may be teething (I just shedded a quick tear)?! Yea, so she has been a cranky goose these last few days.
But I did it anyways and am so proud!
Since I had all these feelings going on, I don't think my workout was as good as it should have been. But, thankfully I did have my 2 older kids cheering me on for a few minutes before they headed off to school. My son even started doing it with me-in his school clothes and everything! So, I couldn't be sad (or at least be visibly sad) and I definitely couldn't give up since they were watching. So, I pushed through. Once my older ones left for school, my baby started getting fussy. So, what did I do (drum roll please)? I picked her up and did my own modifications to the workout to include her since I had to hold her most of the time (I am now taking a bow and doing my happy dance)! It may not seem like a big deal for a lot of people, but for me….it was huge. Typically, I would have just quit and said, eff it! I have plenty of other things to do. I would have had a magical download of excuses flooding my mind. So yes, I am very proud that I finished the work out…even if wasn't doing it exactly like Shaun T and these crazy fit people on screen. Yes, I stopped a bunch of times, but I finished and thats all that really matters!
After the work out: How do you feel?
I was still a bit emotional (again hormones aren't just going to magically disappear), but I was in a better place with myself despite all the obstacles this morning. I mean I finished….even with a baby on my hip. Now, I am not excited for tomorrow, because lets me real….who really loves working out when they are not fit or haven't seen results yet. I remember a time (a very very very brief time) when I did this bootcamp and started getting results and started feeling stronger…I loved going to the gym. But that was ONLY after I started getting my strength and endurance up. Before that, I hated it, dreaded going and would try to find any and every excuse not to go. So as for now, I am patiently waiting for when I start actually liking this whole working out thing.
Until then, peace out! ( mic drop LOL)
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